Are you here?
Long time no see! It seems I disappeared off of the face of the Earth for a few months, but here I am now making my almighty return. I think it’s very clear a lot of stuff has gone down since I last posted here, and Coronavirus (the infamous COVID-19) only just scratches the surface. I feel like I do this quite often, I disappear for a while and then come back with a variety of excuses and then the cycle repeats…
So, here I am again with my excuses – hopefully, I won’t disappear this time (though I probably said that last time too):
I last posted here on the 19th of January, which was almost three months ago. Honestly, I thought it was much longer than that but as everyone well knows, time is a strange and abstract concept! I received my mid-year exam result the same day – a C, which I thought was a little bit of an exaggeration! I met friends in town for coffee and lunch on the 20th and 21st of January, something that now seems so surreal in the midst of the lockdown! On the 25th of January, I had an Offer Holder day at the University of Sussex which was very enjoyable! Everything was going alright, but then at the end of January, my lead practitioner at my local mental health services quit – that kinda sucked.
I began February with a University of Southampton Offer Holder day, which was another very enjoyable day. I also went to IKEA that day and got a new mattress and some other bed-y things which was fun! On the 3rd of February, I received my invitation for interview at St George’s, University of London! That was a very adrenaline-filled day, especially as I was only given less than two weeks to prepare! The beginning of February was generally ok, although I did have a bit of a cold!
I had my interview on the 13th, and it went well! I was given an offer a couple of weeks after! Then everything went a bit downhill after that, firstly I managed to break my Sims 3 game and I still haven’t fixed it, but that’s not really the main issue. I started to really struggle mentally, even though I had good days as well. (I’m adding a trigger warning right here, just in case – take it for the rest of the post because I don’t know where this is going to go!) It started with me spending a day being sick from overdoing it a bit on foods and drinks with known diuretic/laxative effects (10/10 do not recommend). Then, around the same time, I also spent an evening sitting in one of my local hospitals with a mental health nurse – I missed my sign language class!
On the 4th of March, I ended up going to A&E following a paracetamol overdose (100/10 do not recommend), which was highly eventful. I wasn’t allowed back into college for a whole week, but my mum had just been made redundant so she was able to spend time with me. Everything was kind of ticking along ok-ish until BOOM my principal announces they’re closing the college and BOOM Boris Johnson announces lockdown and finally BOOM all mental health services stop! I was lucky that I got an appointment with the psychiatrist the day before my school shut, but other than that there has been nothing and it’s quite hard!
My first week of lockdown went surprisingly well, I caught up on all the classwork I’d missed and it was great! I really struggled with the change in routine though, that was hard to adapt to and I’m still trying to adapt now! Thankfully, Animal Crossing: New Horizons came out on the Switch on the 20th March and I literally have not stopped playing it since. I AM OBSESSED! I’ve also got back into YouTube quite a bit too and I’m so SO close to 100 subscribers now I can almost taste it! So although some things have stooped to new lows, some things are looking up too!
I’m struggling quite a lot with motivation at the moment, but I’m hoping it will shortly return. The dose of my medication has been adjusted and my body is still adjusting to it so I’m putting the lack of motivation down to that – and reminding myself that it’s ok not to be productive all the time!
Wow, ok, that got super rambly – I apologise for that. How have you been coping in this strange lockdown situation? It’s really surreal, isn’t it? I want to help protect the NHS of course, but I really do hope that life returns to something somewhat normal soon – I just wanna see my friends!
So, that was it! first blog post back! I hope within that mess you found some enjoyment! If you’d like to see more of me (interesting concept, I know!) feel free to follow my:
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I forgotten how to sign off a blog post so uh yeah, see ya!
Thanks for reading!