Hello, that’s right – I’m still alive! I know not much has happened here since the end of August, so I think that I owe it to you to explain why. A lot has happened since August, so it might be a good idea to grab a quick cuppa and sit down to read this post! Without further ado, here is my life update!
What Has Happened?
The last post I wrote on this blog I wrote whilst in Scotland. I was feeling particularly down as I was very aware that all my friends would be moving to university very soon. Now, mid-October, they are very much settled in and I am excited to go and see all of them!
When I returned from Scotland, I had to prepare to return to college for my third (and final) year. Additionally, I had to begin preparation for my UCAT exam, which was tedious! On the 2nd of September, I had to go to college to find out what subjects I would be doing this academic year. I came out with A2 Biology, BTEC L3 IT, L1 BSL and my college’s Employability program. Everything was good and I received my timetable on the 6th of September!
On the 8th of September, I completed a Bubble Rush in aid of OCD Action and then I began college the next day! Everything was fine, I was getting myself through the first couple of weeks of college quite easily! I mean, I had done it for two years already!
And just when things were looking up, everything came down. My mental and physical health began to deteriorate. Firstly, I developed a stomach ulcer from taking ibuprofen which caused a considerable amount of sickness and pain. Then the fatigue hit me. I was constantly tired and not getting enough sleep either. I also wasn’t eating well which is mainly due to my eating disorder – so I felt pretty rough!
I took my UCAT exam on the 30th of September and I didn’t do amazingly well but I did well enough to get by. After that I effectively sank into a deep dark pit, so much so my teachers were noticing…
I had to speak to my tutor a few times, who then made me speak to the head of Wellbeing at college. Luckily, they were all very supportive of me! But then I just sank lower and these teachers began to become more concerned, especially as I had to go to the hospital a couple of times. I had no problems with my school work, yet somehow I was struggling with my workload and I was overwhelmed over basically nothing except myself!
On Friday, I was advised to speak to the Student Services Manager (who is also the head of safeguarding) who stuck my straight onto the list for the school counselor. Then, on the same day, I received an email from my Head of House. He said he wanted to talk to me, so I did. He told me that Helen, the head of Wellbeing, is concerned and would like me to drop BTEC IT. I had time to think about it and then I ended up meeting with the two of them later. I did end up dropping IT. I didn’t want to, it was a very hard decision…
So, I’m now on a single A-Level program, doing A-Level Biology. On Monday, I have an appointment with the community mental health team so hopefully, that’ll be okay and I’m also moving house at the end of next week too!
Finding time to blog around all of that was near impossible, but now I’ve dropped IT from my timetable (which took up a total of 8 GLHs) I should have a little more time!
I hope this post was informative and makes sense! More posts to come soon!
Thanks for reading
So so sorry to hear your feeling so low .
I’m hoping you’re feeling a bit better now . Perhaps writing the article has helped.
Please remember how many people love you. I’m here if you need a chat.
Lots of love….
Grandma